ORLANDO — What if you had a burning contempt, almost obsessive dislike, for one person in particular?
What if every day your feelings got stronger, and this person infuriated you more and more — by the minute?
You just wished that person would disappear off the face of the planet — for good.
And what if that person … was you?
Would you fall down a dark hole where the Bloody Rabbit is waiting for you?
How does any one person develop that much self-hatred? Well, what if you placed an overly strong aspect of your self-worth on your career, your home, your ability to demonstrate to others around you that you’re a success?
And what if it all gets wiped away in an economic downturn? What if you start to feel shamefully like the “other” — the person your friends, former co-workers, and neighbors will now shun because you assume they think you’re an embarrassing failure.
Freeline Productions’ novel “Bloody Rabbit” explores that lingering economic anxiety, that unending tension being felt even as jobs get created each month, and even as the pace of layoffs has slowed to a crawl. If this is a recovery, the nation seems to be saying, it sure doesn’t feel like one yet.
The book’s author, Michael W. Freeman, views this economic anxiety through the eyes of the book’s lead character, R.T. Robeson, a resident of Orlando who had assumed that by his late 40s, he was financially stable and successful. Then the recession and housing market collapse came along, and took everything he had — his job, his savings, his home, car, even his cat. As he struggles to cope, he has another huge challenge: to hold onto his dignity.
Things eventually turn around for Robeson: he finds a new, lower paying job, and a tiny apartment that’s affordable on his new salary. But something else has changed. In a society that has seen its wealth and opportunities wiped away, there are some who look for scapegoats. In the minds of the most twisted among them, those scapegoats are easy to find.
Freeman based many of the anecdotes in “Bloody Rabbit” on his own experience being downsized from the newspaper industry in early 2011, and his slow fight to climb back. It’s a story that millions are likely to easily relate to.
How many of us got downsized between 2008 and 2011, and spent so many harrowing days looking in the mirror and asking: Is this nightmare ever going to end?
How many of us cringed when a friend on a social media site posted, “I just found a great new job” …. and while your mind told you that it’s wrong to be envious or jealous of other people’s success and good fortune, it felt like torture to be left out of that kind of excitement?
Welcome to the world explored in “Bloody Rabbit,” a novel of our time.
The book is available on Amazon.com and has also been released on Kindle, available to download in eBook form. It also explores the ways in which economic distress causes some people to cast blame — on politicians, perhaps, or large businesses. But others think particular groups deserve to be singled out — and punished.
As the book opens, Robeson is putting his life back together. He commits himself to the new full-time and part-time jobs that he’s taken, and lives a quiet, economical life in his small apartment.
Maybe he should have been forewarned, though, when his new landlady admits the gruesome history of that apartment, of the atrocities committed against a Jewish civil rights activist who rented it during the Jim Crow era.
Robeson is also working on fighting off feelings of being a failure, and he is increasingly drawn to faith to help him cope. He considers attending a local Synagogue and joining the Jewish faith.
This is before he starts being stalked by an ominous, intimidating man who blames Robeson for his own personal misfortune — and does not hesitate to admit his absolute hatred of the Jews. Suddenly, Robeson starts to feel dangerously, perilously vulnerable.
“Bloody Rabbit” takes an unnerving look at one man’s struggle to keep his life on track – and the strange twists that his frequent bouts of depression have on the life he’s trying so desperately to rebuild.
It also explores how small minority groups — gays and Jews among them — become convenient scapegoats for those who vent anger and hate in rough economic times. It is a book that speaks of, and about, the world we live in today.
(It is also a very personal issue for author Freeman, who has started the process of converting to Judaism.)
Since making the book available, Freeline Media has received some scary and twisting emails — including this message from “Ronald,” which reads in part:
“First Hitler was justified killing pig scum porn drug pushing Jews. Jews are destroying America and we should kill these filthy bastards and throw in a bunch of crooked politicians controlled by Jews with them. Get the filth and violence off American TV. Execute all the Jewish homosexual drug porn pushing scum in Hollywood. Walt Disney Jews are a huge threat to America.”
Reality — or fiction? Which is stranger?
Michael W. Freeman was born and raised in Fall River, Massachusetts. He has lived in Orlando, Florida since 2002. He received his Bachelor’s degree in writing and communications from Hampshire College and a Master’s degree in political communications from George Washington University. He has spent the past 26 years working in the field of journalism, most recently at The Orlando Sentinel as the editor of two community newspapers.
In November 2008, Freeman created Freeline Productions as a vehicle to produce his original play, “Hooked,” at the May 2009 Orlando International Fringe Theatre Festival. He soon expanded Freeline Productions to become a full-scale writing and editing production company that includes the online magazine, Freeline Media, which went live in November 2011, and is still going strong today.
His favorite member of the 1960s pop band The Monkees has always been Mike Nesmith.
“Bloody Rabbit” can be purchased in paperback or Kindle eBook directly from Freeline Productions’ online bookstore or at Amazon.
Contact Freeline Media at Freelineorlando@gmail.com..